Song of the day!

Lana Del Rey is currently my obsession, I love everything about her, Her voice is so fruity and soft spoken, her song are touchy and the lyrics are meaningful, and here is one of my many favorite song by her
Blue jeans, white shirt
Walked into the room you know you made my eyes burn
It was like, James Dean, for sure
You’re so fresh to death and sick as ca-cancer
You were sorta punk rock, I grew up on hip hop
But you fit me better than my favourite sweater, and I know
That love is mean, and love hurts
But I still remember that day we met in December, oh baby!


“Dear darlin’, …

“Dear darlin’, please excuse my writing, I cant stop my hands from shaking, cause I’m cold and alone tonight.

And I miss you, and nothing hurt like no you, and one understand what we went through, it was short it was sweet we tried.”

The flaws of being a best friend…

They say true love is the biggest sacrifice. Something not many of us  has the ability to do, To walk away from the person you love, just to make them happy, and make them happy by letting them love and be loved by someone else… and not you.

He is my best friend since grade 1, we’ve know each other for such long time,  10 years maybe, we cannot keep a secret from one another, he know everything about me and I do so, But do I really know it all?

Next week will be his first college day, he is attending the college he always dreamed  of,  studying marine archaeology, when I knew I was so proud, his dream came true..but what about mine,? and today for the second time he faced me with the truth ,,which was

he was in love, me? no not with me, but with another girl he recently met and is attracted too, he asked me for advice related to what to do, what do girls like, and things like that, he had done that 2 years back with another girl he fell for but that time I had no feeling for him-best friends only- now it’s totally different, yes I fell for him, I don’t know how, and when he was asking me to help him, I just smiled and told him everything I would love to do together, and inside It was just killing me and tearing me into pieces..I think it’s just the price I pay for being his best friend,,,

Is age just a number?

Well, I’ve always believed that age is more than just a number, it define maturity, I also used to criticize those who dated/married people much younger/older  than them, but today something unusual happened…

I have a guy friend, well we’re more than just friend like best friend, he is 2 years younger than me (me:16 him:14)  but he is very mature ,we hangout together our family are friends and so we’ve known each other for 5 years . we talk daily on facebook, but today when we did hangout i went with my 2 girlfriends to a mall, we had fun , ate then they left so I called him and he came, Honestly I had much more fun with him than with my other 2 bestfriend, we talked and talked and walked, I really did have fun and enjoyed every minute . and somehow I THINK I LIKE HIM? I don’t really know, but I feel like I want to see him all the time, talk with him all the time, And about him he is single with no girlfriend and he like to hangout with me too, but I’m not really sure weather he finds me more than friends?

so the question it normal to feel like this to your guybestfriend?    and is it normal to fall for a guy who is younger?  I just hate this idea; that he is younger!